we attended an absolutely incredible dance concert (ririewoodbury) that a couple of our beautiful friends were in last weekend. i fell in love not only with the various dances but also one of the songs used. it’s called “i found a reason” by cat power, and is a velvet underground cover. naturally, i wanted to do a cover of the cover 🙂 actually, i truly couldn’t help myself. i NEEDed to sing this song once i got home. i’m still producing tears when i hear her sing it. i think why this song is so touching to me is because of this little thing going on called pReGnaNcY. lots of thoughts and feelings flowing. “come, come come, come come to me” is a call to my unborn wee babe, in all faith and hopes that she will be born smoothly and healthily. longing that “what comes is better than what came before” for her and i. “i do believe in all the things you see” a desire to be able to empathize with her always and see from her perspective even when i don’t agree. “better run, run run, run run to me” a quiet plea to my loving life partner to continue to keep his eye on the prize: me.
funny how a generally confident woman can have her world rocked by pregnancy…arise feelings of inadequacy, not good enough, fears about parenting and connecting, un-processed anger, body issues, wondering how and why your partner continues to stay with you when you are often a big (literally) mess of ever shifting emotions, physical complaints, etc etc. lots more. despite all of this, i feel lucky that i recognize my stuff, and am trying to do what i can to pass along LOVE and HOPE to this little girly than FEAR that does nothing but stifle us and keep us stuck.
with all of that, here’s my rendition of “i found a reason” for my wee family. thanks for reading.
Hang in there Jess!! Those hormones are rocking your world…but in a good way…bonding you to that little lady. xo
Jess, I think I have listened to this like 20 times now. Maybe cause I am pregnant too, but I definitely feel this song. Thank you for covering and posting it!
Gorgeous! Just like you. 🙂
Love you Jessica.